why must this happen?

i got alot to talk about. too much indeed. it got me wondered. WHY DO I MISS YOU SO MUCH???????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it puzzles me. why in the sudden. it got me thinking. what the hell am i doing to all this people around me?! sometimes i just feel like im a *****. perhaps ya??? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm............... i still love you?? perhaps ya. i want to be with you again? perhaps ya? haiya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! why now?! urrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! sometimes. it sucks big time.;(