i know i had to end this

one thing for sure. i have to end this. everthing have to come to an end. i believe so. great. i just dont know how i should start this. or maybe end this? hmmmmmmmm. the truth is........................................................

hey. i got to tell you something. what i say now is the last thing you are going to hear from me. i mean it. i dont want to hurt anyone right now. but the thing is, now its happening to you urself. hmmmmmm. im sorry. i had to do this. i know this should go on a lil' bit better. i heard alot from my frens about you talking to them. end that. please. it bugs me. i can see that you are getting distracted with almost everything. you wondered so much about why in the sudden i did this to you; not replying your texts, your calls, acknowledge you in school or even letting you sent me home. i know its hard for you to accept this. its the same for me. its hard for me to tell you this as well.

the thing that puts to an end to that misery feeling of yours is,.................................... im letting go of you. i cant see this relationship of ours going anywhere. i just cant. its not that im playing with your feelings. its just that. we're not meant for each other. i cant bare holding on anymore. i cant go on doing things that you want me to. im sick of it. people always ask me to do things that i dont want to. i maybe a bitch. but what i know is, im not gonna hurt you. if i had said anything along the way, im sorry if it had a great impact on you and made you feel that our relationship is really going somewhere. to tell you the truth, it aint. i hope you would understand. as you know, things are changing from bad to worst for me. i cant do this. my feelings are just too confuse. liking you and thinking of another, its so hard for me. how could i go on, pretending. pretending that this heart of mine is okay. its not distracted by anyone. the fact is that, its so hard having the one i love over you. you should'nt know who. eventhough if one day you would, i just want to end this clear. i just cant go on pretending everything is okay when the fact is, its not. i cant bare the pain. you may want to call me a bitch or anything. by all mean, do it. i can see that im the sucking one right here. i know. perhaps i should'nt even invoved you in this life of mine. as all i can see that; im a disappointment in this life of yours. perhaps, you should consider this as an answer to the question you're longing to listen.

P.S; My bet for getting you involve in this life of mine...