during art

okae done. hehehs.

nothing better to do

this is budak pondok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! short of fiqah, syidah and khalisah. this is on 28 april. hahha!!! the crazy time. hahah!!!

today at cnteen, crazy sey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! dare die, WOW!!! hahahah!!! rabak! hahhha!!! i made myself stupid! hahahahahah!!!!! aunties2... hahahahahha!!!! after tat, head to gek poh. then home. hahha!!! overslept till tak g ngaji... rabak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! till here.

had my day today.

25 April 2009;

yoyoyoyoyo!!!! hahhaha!!! went to bugis street with dearest sister. and my frens too. farah,mimie and mimi. hahah!! great day man!! hahhaha!!! loads of laughters. bought some stuffs then my sis head for home while i look for my stuffs with my dearest friends. lepak at esplanade. played games. hahaha!!! funny sia!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahah!!! but had fun. hahahah!! head for home at 7.30p.m. reach home at 8.45p.m. had my day man!!!!

28 April 2009;

had my mother tongue paper 1. wah! senang plus susah!!! hahahahha!!! seriously. wakakakaka!!! done with paper, saw him. gave back that pic. then head to jurong point. got treat by yanti. hahaha!!! gerek! then talk2. lamer sey we at mc. hahhahah!!! then walk around jurong point. saw adi, sariman and rahman. hahahah!! saw alot of boonlayian sey hahahah!! wats the occasion oso idk. wakakakakaka!!!

i'll be that gerl.

WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay la ehk. fine. i'll forget you! if thats what you want. i don't want to interfere ready la ehk! goodluck and goodbye. your picture, fine! i'll return. it means so much to you. i have no right not to return your precious picture of yours. cause it means so much to you. fine. i'll return. and i'll promise to myself that i'll forget you soon. take care.

yo! wah! today. truths all come out. im glad they have the guts to tell me ahr. before it became worse. im sorry yaww you guys. in a way, it hurts me too. about returning back the necklace back. i can cry infront of you guys sey tadi... hmmm.... thanks once again yaww.... appreciated. i promise i'll do something about it alright.=)

the world will still go round even without you...

it has been 3 months and 19 days eversince we last had our number, 21. Even after we change our number, i miss 21. it feels so different to have a different number. i dont know why. but i feel like it. hmm..... if not, it will have been our 7 months today.... haiz.... there's nothing i can do... nevermind. life has to go on no matter what.

was walking to music room when he was right in front of my eyes... haiz.......................... whatever. had my oral just now. wah! damn late pe die habis!!!! 5.45p.m then im done....ish3.... hahahha!!!! went 860 meet farah. then home sweet home.

“You can shed tears that he is gone,
or you can smile because he has lived.
You can close your eyes and pray that he'll come back,
or you can open your eyes and see all he's left.
Your heart can be empty because you can't see him,
or you can be full of the love you shared.
You can turn your back on tomorrow and live yesterday,
or you can be happy for tomorrow because of yesterday.
You can remember her only that he is gone,
or you can cherish his memory and let it live on.
You can cry and close your mind,
be empty and turn your back.
Or you can do what he'd want:
smile, open your eyes, love and go on.”

i find it true...

1) Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

2) Guys are more emotional then you think. If they loved you once, it'll take them a lot longer then you think to let go in their head, and it hurts every second that they try.

3) Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

4) A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

5) Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what? uh...never mind." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

6) If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

7) A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

8) GUYS LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU LOVE THEM !!!

9) Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole heck of a lot.

10) If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

11) If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and he's really thinking on something.

12) When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

13) When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

14) If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

15) When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

16) Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD or confusing, but somehow are drawn even more to them.

17) A guy would give the world to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

18) No guy can handle all his problems on his own; he's just too stubborn to admit it

19) NOT ALL GUYS ARE RUDE!!! Just because ONE is RUDE doesnt mean he represents ALL of them.

20) WHEN A GUY SACRIFICES HIS SLEEP AND HEALTH JUST TO TALK TO YOU, HE REALLY LIKES YOU AND WANTS TO BE WITH YOU AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE.

21) Even if you dumped a guy months ago and he loved you, he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be for you to come back into his life.

18 and 19 of april.

hey3!! Walked at Clarke Quey, Boat Quey, Raffles, City Hall. We went Central Mall, Funan Mall and Penin. Wah! It was a hot day! Nearly got heat stroke! hahahha!!! jkjk. A way to describe the day. hahhaha!!! In a day, a lot of things happened! Believe me. hahaha!!! Reached home at 8.30. Went out. Meet family at Jurong Point. Then, HOME SWEET HOME!.... IT WAS A TIRING DAY INDEED... hahahhaha!!!!!!!!!!

Today is the 19. It was suppose to be. But its not. Too bad its over. I wont want to hurt my heart anymore. Enough is enough. We shall not be together anymore. Not with stupid reasons. I dreamt, i cried, i thought and my feel your presence each time my pass our memory lane. But, it so HISTORY.

Went to watch MVFC. I stayed for the first half only. Went Gek Poh then back home.and now, right here. *LIGHTS OFF*

why must this all happen??

i just don't know how the hell i must move on. i cant take it any longer. my heart keeps calling your name each time..... haiz. how do you handle that. after all we've been through. WHY?!!!!!!!!!!! WTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck la. i want to be strong. SOMEONE out there, help me. k ahr fine. you ask me to move on. i get it. now, all i can say is GOODBYE

watched "sumpah pocong" at Liyana's house..hahhaha!!!! gerek pe! hahahha!!! then head back to school. wait for Farah. then head back home. talk3... till 7.30p.m....hahahah!!!! n yah. THE END

happie bdae! n nice to see you!

14 april 2009
hey. happy birthday teetot! hehehs. hmmm.... just hope your wishes come true yaww... and about HIM, stay strong yaww girlfriend!! hehehs.

he went ncc camp. 2 days. not gonna see him. after break, talk with Ahzyp jap. then head for class.then,had lesson with Mr Ramesh during self-studies till 3++... i understand la sey! yessa!! then, went to canteen. syidah return me my book that was once with him. hahha!!! memories. then, a few minutes later, saw him.............. =( haiz. never mind. then, he chat with me!!!!!!!! omg!!!!!!!!! hahahha!!! hehehs. his hair got cut. sedih pe.... hahhaha!!! tkpe. stay cute yaww dear one! hahah!!! jkjk. tkde insurance sey bbl. hahah!!!! till here, tc. bb.


a poem that i found while researching.

Do you Realize...That I dream about you every night now?I try to hold onto you in sleep and bring those feelings into lightBut noYou don't realize..Do you Realize...That every time I see you withHERI know I just wasn't good enoughBecause even though together we are perfectYou chose herNoYou don't realize...Do you Realize...That I cry when we hang up after being on the phoneBecause I know that was one more phone call in which I wasn'tBrave enough to tell you what I feelNoYou don't realize...Do you Realize.....how much it hurtsEven after all this time Do you realize I miss the way you smellThe way you're mouth tastesHaving your arms around meLooking in your eyes while you played with my fingersThe way we kissed in publicThe way we kissed in privateThe way You used to say there was no one elseBut then you liked her moreAnd I didn't realize.

its so true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Did you know that every night before you go to sleep there is one person of the opposite sex thinking of you. They want to kiss you, they want to be with you, they are always thinking about you, this is all true and not fake. If you re post this in 5 min the person that is longing to be with you will approach you within one month and ask you out or grab you and kiss you. but if you break this chain no one will like you or ask you out again for 5 years........

advice....

WHEN SHE SAYS YOU ARE CRAZY/WEIRD

-SHE IS REALLY CRAZY ABOUT YOU!

WHEN SHE ACTS SHY

-SAY I LOVE YOU

WHEN SHE RUNS AWAY FROM YOU

- CHASE HER

WHEN SHE PUTS HER FACE NEAR YOURS

- KISS HER

WHEN SHE KICKS & PUNCHES

- HOLD HER TIGHT

WHEN SHE IS SILENT

- SHE'S THINKIN OF HOW TO SAY I LOVE YOU

WHEN SHE IGNORES YOU

- SHE WANTS ALL YOUR ATTENTION!

WHEN SHE PULLS AWAY

- GRAB HER BY THE WAIST AND NEVER LET GO

WHEN YOU SEE HER AT HER WORST

- TELL HER SHE'S BEAUTIFUL

WHEN SHE SCREAMS AT YOU

- TELL HER YOU LOVE HER BUT MEAN IT!!

WHEN YOU SEE HER WALKING

-SNEAK UP BEHIND HER GRAB HER BY THE WAIST AND GIVE HER A KISS

WHEN SHE'S SCARED!!!!!!!!!

-HOLD HER AND TELL HER EVERYTHING WILL BE OK CAUSE SHE'S WITH YOU

WHEN SHE LOOKS LIKE SOMETHINGS THE MATTER

- KISS HER AND TELL HER NOT TO WORRY

WHILE SHE HOLDS YOUR HAND

- PLAY WITH HER FINGERS

WHEN SHE SAYS SHE COLD

-SHE WANTS YOU TO HOLD HER TIGHT

post this in the next 70 seconds and you

will have the

best day of your life this friday

and the one u love will either...

KiSS U,ASK U OUT.,CALL U, OR TEXT U.......

.....OR

BETTER.........

REPOST THiS titled "WHY BOYS GO OUT WITH GIRLS...SO TRUE"

hmm... easy to say than react.

hey. i don't think i would want to look back anymore. but i do want to remember them. memories are meant to be remembered what. challenges in life is occurring to me this few days. ever since then. and to us, i just hope we will communicate as friends and lead a happy life. i didn't know that ex couldn't communicate after break ups. like nonsense right! alamak..hahhaha!!!!!

just now during music, gerek!! see other class's video.. cute la sey! hahahha!! then went around disturbing people. hhahahha!!!! sorry. at last, jameson pull my chair. baik pe! hahah!!! went to nasir's table. along with izzat, mifdhal, faiz and hafeez. see hantu!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...hahahha!!!! after school napfa. i did good. except for sit and reach. FAIL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! rabak....=( then.home sweet home.

2.4 km: 14.20 mins (A)
sit and reach: 27 cm (F)
inclined pull-up: 12 (C)
shuttle run: 11:2+....hehehs.i forget (A)
sit-ups: 30...hahahha!!!!!!!!!!!! (A)
standing broad jump: 160 cm (C)

WTH SIA!!!! NO GUTS...WAT KIND OF PERSON..

wah. tried to online. but wth! damn irritated sia with that kind of person. dont you have the guts after what you've done??!! signing in my account then say whatever your mouth want to say. "i'll reveal myself soon".......wth! GRANDFATHER STORY ALL COME OUT..... WHATEVER LA EHK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

was going to school as per normal. haiya. JUST FORGET ABOUT ME LA EHK! tell everyone. GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im sMiling. cAn yOu teLL???

i woke up not realising that we ended yesterday. it was kinda sad when i look back. but. never mind. don't wish to recall.... wish you all the best in life. and when you make decision,never regret them. i just hope this won't affect my mid-year, and most importantly, our friendship. let's see our reaction when we're in school tomorrow. i bet,......... never mind. let's just see.


went to pioneer secondary to watch MVFC. hahha!!!! mimie and my sister invited. hahha!!! just go with the flow. hahaha!!! V.S jurongville team la sey!!! hahahah!!!! cool2... want to go home, bought snickers again.. hehehes. sorry. demam choclate ahr.. haha!!! loose stress...

yesterday chat with streetlight fiesta. they tried to make me laugh. okay2 la. don't want to think much. got to do something what.. true?? ate chocolate at night. can't really sleep. haiz!!!!!!!!! see ya people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =( *sobsob*

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ITS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MNM NO LONGER EXIST. YOU STILL HAVE THE GUTS TO SAY TO ME; FIND A MAN THAT IS BETTER THAN YOU AND CAN GIVE ME HAPPINESS??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW HURTING MORE CAN IT BE??!!!!! SO MUCH FOR 1 YEAR. I NEVER REGRET ON TELLING HIM NOT TO PROMISE ME FOREVER. CAUSE I KNOW THIS WILL HAPPEN. THX AHR EHK! AND SORRY IS ALL YOU MANAGE TO SAY. BRILLIANT! I HAD ENOUGH EHK. AND GOODBYE.



11 APRIL 2009; 5; 29.

TH X ALOT! WHATEVER IT IS,I DO STILL LOVE YOU.

how long are we gonna stay like this???

i wonder how long are we gonna be like this.its damn irritating sey... why cant we just be like how we use to?? you thought of leaving me already....but you ask for time to think it through. i gave you.but you act,as if we're.... i don't know.....i miss you.i love you.i want to talk things out with you.but its so hard! i just hope that we will be okay. i can't imagine if we were to seperate again....i don't think i can manage myself.think it through dear.u're just confuse.

annual sports day two.

it was our sports day.and guess wat? for both events i got 3rd.... from d last.. hahhahah!!!!pathetic. i knw. hahahha!!! thn, eversince monday,he still have not communicate with me.great or wat? haiz....cannot do anithg. saw hym running.1500,he lyk cannot make it.i was damn worried.but yea. he made it.without vomitting at the end of the race. thank god. kinda disappointed with hym not communicating with me. but,wth. whn wanna go home,never even say a word to hym.haiyoyo. we're not lyk couples animore sey...=( thn walk pass,we act lyk we juz saw a lamp pose. was damn disappointed with hym sia. tros no mood.khalisah go to hym n ask hym to chase me.he did. we talk things out.and yea.we're kinda okay. i can say.

i dreamt about us.we were falling apart.

u having another gerl behind my back.

"is it a bad sign??"

omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we juz got our results for syf. n guess wat?? we acheived GOLD WITH HONOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i juz cant believe it man!!! after all we've been through. practice,practice n practice for over 3 months non-stop, we acheive it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! to: si tua, we prove u wrong ehk!cant even make it to bronze?? ur head!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we got gold with honours lgk.. dh puas hati??? and, to: sch..we can make it. so much for ur laughters. now,laugh ahr... and finally, to:inzalisna tari, thank you so much for everythg!!!!! we got what we wanted!!!!!yessa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

juz being random

great news. i speak up. n yea!!! we're back to normal!! its quite weird not talking,chat, smile or even look in the eyes at each other. i find it damn awkward sia. i felt lyk i juz lost a life....hahha!! macam fake gituk.. hahah!!! but dun worry.we're okae. our 2nd month is approaching!! hahhaha!! so musch for the tears. cya 2mrw!!!!

ily rahman. eventhough after whar
you did to me,my love for you is blooming.ily;

cAnt i gEt moRe streSS??!!!

hey.hey.hey!!!!!! k.im gonna make my very first
post rite here people.. hahahha!!!! just done with doing this blog of mine.. fuh! tkle stress lgk pe??!!! hahahha!!! it took around..... 4 hours??!!! wah!!!trok2.... hahahhaha!!!!! but im satisfied with d outcome. credits to syarmmimie roza sia.. hahahha!!!! thx yaww!!!! nk katekn.. hahhaha!!!!! kla,stress enough ready.. hahhaha!!!!! nite2...