to you're

8 September 2009;

im right here in school doing my music CA. hahahah!!! i think he's at home, still asleep. hahaahhaha!!!! just now, after sahur, WE OTP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just to get me sleepy. put down phone, cannot sleep. texted him, he oso not aslp. he had the feeling im not aslp. arent he swit?!!!! eeehe! woke up at 8.20. and im here.=D

7 September 2009;

HE HEALED A BIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehehehe!!!! yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! went to cik jun's house go cut hair. then go home, damn dizzy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! otp with him. then go break fast. he felt a bit sick. then asked him rest. then, at night, watched princess protection. and im done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! otp with him at night!!!!=D

6 september 2009;

HAPPY 8 MONTHSARY TO SYAQIM MUSIRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HE'S SICK AGAIN!!!!!! but better?? i guess. hmmm..... at least got to text him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehehehehehe. went imm followed by ikea. buy things for hari raya. heheheheheh! wah. the things damn heavy la sey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahhahaha!!! then had to carry it home. called dad to help us. then reached home. got to text him just for a moment then im busy with helping mum. cousins breaking fast at our house. when done, text him and otp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!=D. but............... im sorry.;(

5 september 2009;

HE'S SICK AGAIN!!!!! but better. 38.7. consider okay what!! hahahahhah!!! then asked him rest again. im just at home doing house chores. then he go his grandma house to break fast. he's sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haiya. then at night his uncle bring him to clinic at clementi. doctor says he's down with THE VIRUS. i dont get wat it mean. not even him. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.................... but the doctor says he's going to be okay. JUST GET WELL SOON MY DEAR. at night, went sheng siong. blah3.

4 September 2009;

Just felt like saying it out.

im now back with them. just them.

it seem so hard bonding, trusting and facing them.

i dunno why. but its hard.

and awkward.

i know. my fault. nvm. i know my mistakes.

im a human. i do make mistake.

but you guys scold me as if im a perfect person.

URGH!!!!

that's the main reason why its so hard.

do you know how hurtful is it when your fren scolds you and blame it all to you.

fine. if its really your fault, there's always a better way.

im not an animal who listen to your orders you know.

im not one.

you guys just dont understand. its hard.

blending back.

a smile im faking.

each day without failing.

nobody will see me crying.

co'z i only do when im sleeping.

im just trying my very best.

i dont care how you guys want to face me.

coz i do things with a reason.

but i keep i to myself.

for what tell people when they dont even show

that they care.

im just suffering in slence

right here.

i know who to run to when im down.

and its up to me to decide who i want it to be.